Being in love with the wrong person really fucks you up. They make you fall for their sweet words and false hopes, then they just get up and walk away. It’s happened to me and now I have no idea when I’ll be able to love myself or find someone who can love me. I’m to the point where I feel so damaged that no one can ever see me as “perfect.” Love will never be the same for me. The experience I had.. It broke me, I thought I knew what I was getting myself into but in the long run.. I just hurt myself. I fell for someone who I thought fell for me just as hard. Turns out the only reason that person stayed with me was because they were “used to knowing me” and not having to get to know someone all over again. You know how bad of a feeling that is? It feels like absolute shit. I wish I saw love differently but I really don’t. My mentality is currently turned to shit, I have given up on the aspect of love…. Can I just be fixed already?
Be with someone that never stops choosing you. They would cross an ocean or even step over a puddle to be with you and don’t make excuses.
Do not let yourself wrap so tightly around their heart that you cannot see that how much they say they love you falls short of how much they show you they love you. They will always show you how they really feel.
Do not ever love someone that treats you like an option. One of two, one of three, no. That will fuck you up.
Do not fall for someone that doesn’t take careful consideration about how their decisions will effect you. You shouldn’t have to protect yourself from the person you love.
It should only be you. You should be the one they want, no questions asked. It should always be you. You. You. You. Never compete for them, it will only ravage your last shred of trust you had for them as well as future relationships and scar your heart beyond healing.
This is not a fucking luxury. Being the first and only choice is not a magnificent grandeur. It’s not too much to fucking ask not to be a romantic safety net. Fuck anyone that says otherwise"
Honestly just really wanna curl up in a fucking ball and cry my eyes out right now. Thinking about things over and over kills.